I wrote an entire letter without realizing just how negative it is.
Upon re-reading it, my eyes popped-outta my head.
Ugh, what a horrible novelette about my life and those around me.
Is this really the message I want to be projecting to my friend? She may just send out The Recruits to rescue me from myself.
Yikes!!
In the next few reflective moments, I realize my patterns are very different, since leaving the Twin Cities. I look back without judgment, to the time I used to awaken each day with Gratitude.
I wrote ten things I was happy about, even if it just amounted to having a loyal dog sleeping next to the bed, a fuzzy blanket over me, the brilliant sun peering in the window, I felt better. I rejoiced in the very things I saw with my own eyes, reflecting back the friends and supportive family around. I acknowledged it all.
One fine day, I just stopped. Forgot. Had to get up and race off to work probably. A few days later, I didn’t speak aloud, let alone write down, what I was grateful for, thinking it wasn’t making a damn bit of difference.
Guess it’s like taking vitamins or eating in a healthy way, I may not really know just how helpful it is to my existence, even if my body feels better when I do eat that way. My mind could be sharper, more…positive?? Those glacial changes go unnoticed.
The thoughts get implanted: “It doesn’t work."
Then my brain continues to seek alignment with those new ideas and decisions.
And then, circumstances and consequences parallel all that crap (sorry for the highly technical term.) I hijacked my happiness and gratitude.
Crazy right?
If there is the smallest of chances that it is possible for the negative thoughts to turn my life to shit, then there may be a like magic in positivity and that the reverse could also be true.
I didn't forget, I remembered!!
My discomfort with others, my circumstances, situation, particulars, is a reflection of how I feel about myself.
WHAT??
Could this be true?
If there is the slightest, minute possibility, I’m there!
Comin’ back around to my Gratitude List.
What can YOU do to turn things around?
What are you grateful for...
Remember again!
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Thanks, and keep coming back!
I'm off to re-write my letter.